finally got onto AIM, screenname -- skomitmoz --. you should all contact me or send me lists or something so I can add to my buddy list.
Nudity is huge here, on the beach, in the pool, playing naked tag, I've done it all. There is only one drag picture I can find out there right now, give it time and remind me and I'll tell you where others are.
a student committed suicide today, by hanging. he was a pretty popular guy on campus, everyone and everything is sad. I didnt know him but I still feel weirdly crappy.
miss you all.

Hello sweet Missoula Children,

I just spent 3 hours in the library, yeah for college work!! I'm almost finished with "Nickeled and Dimed" which is very exciting. I have some volleyball tryouts later this week, and i'm possibly going to either a Dean Meetup or a College Dems meeting on Wednesday. Somebody want to help me pick? I had some damn good chicken for dinner. Yah

love and hugs,
Caitlin

hm... I am not taking any classes with naked people in them, but I am considering being the naked person. Seriously, nude models get paid like $16/hour. I'm 18 and relatively comfortable with myself so... yeah. One of the jobs under consideration. I also may donate some eggs. In case you haven't noticed, I'm getting nervous about this money situation. ONE egg and they compensate you $5,000!! seriously. It must hurt a lot though.
Why are my blog posts always so much more random than everyone else's?
It's a lovely Chicago day, crisp and clear and not TOO much wind, which is good because I've been bouncing around way too much for the amount of sleep I got last night.
Alan, please post a link to some of those pictures of you in drag...

Aloha, Here is the story of my weekend: Friday after eating dinner, played lots of frisbee, then went to watch riley's soccer game, we kicked Reed's ass. Then got talked into participating in a drag auction for charity with my roommates. managed to sell myself for a whole $20. I hope I don't ever decide to run for president because there are pictures all over. Lastnight, Riley and I and a bunch of people went to a birthday party at the house where I am planning to build a full-fleged winery. An excellent time, but much drinking... and there you have it, nothing too exciting, but not too boring either. The boredom comes today when I sit down and write a paper and read an entire book for class. hope everyone is having an excellent weekend also.

hi kids, what's with this? I do not agree that no news is good news... I want to hear from y'all. Wasn't that the point of this blog (and isn't that a WEIRD word?)

So I'm going to services up in Evanston (where Northwestern is) with this woman who was my aunt Judy's good friend when they were kids. Her name is Gwen Macci, and she called me and started going on about how I simply must come with them because she wants to know everything that's happened to my whole family in the past twenty years. WHOAH, I mean WHOAH. So I'm going to dinner (brisket!) at her mother's house where there will be like 15 people, then services at this reconstructionist synagogue. Reconstructionism is really interesting, the services are actually more traditional than reform (more hebrew, etc) but then their attitude is to think about God however you like, etc. I like that.

Ok conundrum time. So as some of you may know I have been wanting to do an endurance riding since my sophomore year of highschool. (For those of you who don’t know an endurance ride is a really long race on horse back through the mountains (or across the dessert, whatever, just really rough terrain) the one I would do as a beginner would be 25 miles) But every year I started conditioning to do one the fates conspired against me. The first year someone got run over (by a horse, ouch) at the place where the race was gonna be held. The second year there were all the fires so everything got cancelled ect ect. Well, Malika has a horse she wants to conditions for an endurance ride next summer so I could train with her and there is one I could do in July (there by letting me go to college as planed). The catch is I would have to start training in April. Which would heavily cut into traveling the globe time. So I really want to travel but I also really want to do this race. Errrg! I hate decisions.

no really, ascott actually DOES live in a castle. Check it out:

http://housing.cornell.edu/housing_residential/risley.asp

Silly Alan... Just discovering Elliott Smith. he is indeed cool, though.
I need to sleep more. I'm cataloguing the library at marwen, and I kept falling asleep in front of the computer this morning. Then I had to call all these kids to tell them to come pick up their artwork (from summer 2002! Crikey, people) and literally half of the people who answered the phone didn't speak English. I stumbled through a few conversations in Spanish, but mostly I was just lost. Hot diggity, I suck.
The mystery tours people called me back for an interview! OH YES... this could seriously rock. I need money, people. If any of you know of philanthropic organizations with a little cash overflow... let me know.
Zach is a dork with "Robbie," the howard dean boy.

Don't you hate it when you discover something thats really great and then find out everyone else already knows about it? Yeah, me too. In this case, I discovered Elliott Smith. He's cool.

Went sailing today, I think I'm falling in love. The wind was awesome and so was the beer. We raced and played pirates the whole time and (It wasnt us - I SWEAR) capsized a rival boat... serious fun. Other homework distractions include the development of a launching device to fling terror - in the form of old cabbage - at evildoers below our room. I have to put that on hold now to read 150 pages of pure boredom for sociology, but its cool. --- Love to all

I went to go see "Once Upon a Time in Mexico" yesterday instead of studying. Not something I'd suggest any of you spending money on, because it's really just a lot of gratuitus violence, but if it happens to be on TV during a Deppethon some time, stay on that channel long enough to here Johnny Depp slip into Cap'n Jack Sparrow. He says "savvy?"!!!!!

Last night I went to the Lambda dance with Roth. And you know what? It was the first time I really missed you all. I never though you could be homesick in your own home. I was looking out over the crowd of familiar faces (the people whose names we never knew but saw over and over at every dance) and thinking how much I wanted to see Alan and Rylie and Chris and Ledah and Zach and everyone else out there and dance with you all. And as I was sitting there being all mopey, Kylie and Sean and Shane showed up and got a shot of tequila in me. Then Jessie and Laramie appeared. And suddenly I was dancing in the middle of all these people I am beginning to know and am learning to love. God I miss you all so much!
But I love my life here. I love the people I am getting to know. I am a Missoula girl. And I think there is nothing wrong with staying here. For the rest of my life even. But at this moment in my life I will go where ever I please. Do you have any idea how liberating it is to know that at any moment you could just up and leave and fly to china? In fact, I think I will. Tomorrow.

Hey my little scrunchies.
Oh my god I had enormous "why leave missoula" thoughts, as I was leaving and my first few days here. In fact, I still have them, although (as I prepare to go see a play this afternoon and as I'm watching crazy people on the El and as I'm looking at Lake Michigan) I'm remembering that I wanted to see new things, like Alan, and definitely get out of my comfort box. It's good to be a whole person without neeeding to be defined by where you are. Plus, I can always go back, and then it'll be a choice, you know?
Played pool on a black pool table last night. Very cool. Everyone should check out the group "Reclinerland" they're friggin awesome.

just got back from a night on the coast. to celebrate pirate day, five of us got three 1.5 L jugs of carlo rassi, built a fire, and said things like, "Yarr, ye be a scurvy land lubber, ayyy," on the beach all night. The stars were out and the ocean was cold and wonderful, just what I needed.

The reluctant feelings were definetly there right after I left. I soon forgot about that, though, and looking back on it I realize the reason I left missoula was because I wanted to get out of the comfort zone and explore. I'm pretty sure I made the right choice for myself

Happy national Speak like a Pirate Day, everyone.

hahhaha I would like to point out that Larke has just gone against her OWN request and used Oulala to post a PERSONAL request directly to someone, which she expressly asked we NOT use it for! HA! HYPOCRITE! (and by that I mean I love you... see, I did it too...)

In case anyone is worried, chicago has quite the little gay-villa, right in what used to be a very SWEDISH neighborhood. Badass, dude, seriously badass.
I realized today what an expedition grocery shopping can be. My aunt and I went, and it was way too much for either of us. She never does big grocery trips, but feels like she should because I'm here. I mean, we didn't actually get THAT much, but I'm used to buying, say, one can of soup when I need to go to the store. It felt like a lot of food for two people, but her fridge was essentially empty when I arrived.

Hey y'all!
So the weather here is true MT. This morning when I left for work it was 40 degrees, raining and miserable. This evening when I got home it was 75 degrees sunny, clean fresh fall air, not a cloud in the sky. Mmmmmm.
Rylie, what is your contact information?

"Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at an Elingsh uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer are in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae we do not raed ervey lteter by it slef but the wrod as a wlohe and the biran fguiers it out aynawy."

Cool, eh?

I gotta find me some rich jews.

So today in my German cinema class we watched Fritz Lang’s metropolis. Oh. My. God. This movie invented the blockbuster and watching it made me realize that every other film I have ever seen has been trying to replicate the awe that Metropolis inspires. No matter how old fashioned the technology was it still amazes to this day. That Lang managed to choreograph a thousand (a thousand!) extras to movie as one…. The only problem was that the original score was lost so we watched it with this crazy 80’s synthesizer stuff as background music. But still, it is amazing and moving and has boys in eyeliner. What more could you ask for?

Hey darlings.
Highlight of the day: I was taking the metra (shitty train that hardly goes anywhere) back downtown around 5 p.m. and there was a woman standing on the train facing the lake (east). She was saying evening prayers in Hebrew, very softly, doing the whole rocking back and forth, stepping back when she should and standing up and sitting down. She was also dressed all in black. Women aren't required (some would say are excluded, others exempt) to say the evening and morning prayers, so it was really interesting. Made me almost glad to be here.

On a whim before I left Missoula, I ordered a copy of the first Harry Potter in spanish. I thought I'd read it to get myself back into the gear before taking a spanish class here next semester. (as if I'd have time). It came in the care package my mom sent me yesterday - I'd completely forgotten about it. Now it's on the shelf of things I'd LIKE to read, if only I had any inkling of hope of being able to.

I've been here for almost a month and I'm still not sure if it seems real or not. I like it though. Chris, are you going to swing by on your way down? you should, even if its only to say 'sup (LC is only 1.5 miles from I5 which you will probably be driving on anyways). Also, did you rack the wine? I'm working on getting some going here.

Hyde park is a small island of idyllic charm and I plan to retreat there as often as possible.

OH, I forgot! Beniffer broke up! The day before their wedding! I am a bad bad person! This makes me so happy!

So today I was lying in bed trying to talk myself into going to my 11 o’clock German class when it hit me. I am so not ready for college. Nice to know I made the right decision but also a little scary.
Watch Nosferatu today. You know it is hard to be scared of a vampire that kind of resembles a giant bunny rabbit. I am so sick of the expressionists. Thank gott we move in to new objectivity on Wednesday. Yah I have no idea what I am talking about. But we move into sound next week (miracle of miracles).
And the search for a room mate continues.

So here's one of my job possibilities. The ad reads as follows: "Actors/actresses: mystery ltd is having interviews for actors to work on our Mystery Trains/Cruises and in mansions. You must have an outgoing personality, have a reliable car, a clear speaking voce and be able to memorize."
Seriously, how cool would that be? I called and left a message - you make $50 a party! It's the whole "host a mystery" type deal... very cool.
I'm working the next three days at this trade show - from what I can gather, the dude sells travel packages to companies, who then give them as rewards to their employees. I dunno - all I really know is his name's Joe (JOE!) and he has a brooklyn accent. I'm meeting him today.
I have a meeting with the people at Marwen (www.marwen.org, it's very cool) that arts school, on friday, so hopefully next week I'll be up and running with a routine.

Hey, I'm a little slow on the uptake... but Happy Birthday Chris and Zach!

I'm not sure If the first thing I typed worked, because its not showing up yet. I saved it though, and I'll do it again in a bit. and now I'm going to practice.

Here is my info.

Lewis and Clark College - MSC 2235
0615 SW Palatine Hill Rd.
Portland, OR 97219
room: (503)-768-8480
Cell (I tried hard to avoid it): (503)-349-4367

You should e-mail me at: worf@lclark.edu because I check that more often

now I'll see if this works.

What the hell is this?
I miss all you guys, sorry I haven't been in contact much... I think its like what ledah was saying; just takes a while to get settled. Heres a quick sum of what I can tell you. I've been busy. Lastnight there was a fire in my dorm. I was stuck outside for a while in my boxers and bathrobe. It was cold and there were flashing lights and big, scary firemen yelling. I went into another dorm and tried to sleep on the hard floor but it was too noisy outside, I spent the whole time quietly swearing. Two and a half hours later I was finally able to go back in. I didn't wake up till twelve, what a waste of a day. There's a crapload of stuff to catch up on here. I'm good. This school kicks ass. Classes are good and so are the professors. I'm taking sociology, Acting, and physics in addition to the core class called Inventing America. The only bad thing so far is plato's republic, which we had to read in like a week. I'm learning how to sail and maybe getting a radio show. I also joined the black student union and a couple other clubs. My roommates are all very cool. We are on the fifth floor in a fairly large room. We have a megaphone that we use to yell at people below. Riley and I are hanging quite a bit; we're putting together a few ditties for the Portland Saturday market and playing Frisbee and going to the goodwill bins, where you can buy clothes for 1.30 a pound. I have a few recommendations for EVERYONE...: This one I stumbled upon when looking for cake lyrics: *** blather.newdream.net *** its crazy and weird and poetic and mind boggling. I'll let you figure it out. Check it out. The other is a video that was shown to me by a friend here. Its called BARAKA, its 30 countries, its no dialogue, its 70mm beautiful filming, its kick ass music, its comparing humanity to the eternal, its AWESOME. You might want to just go ahead and buy it. Since mine is the longest one here, I'm going to stop.

Anyone been to the website Homestar? Everyone at PLU seems to know about it and quote it constantly. It's fairly amusing, but I really think you have to be part of the initiated cult to fully appreciate it.

just so y'all know, it takes me like four or five days of being in a place to be able to mentally face the prospect of decently and coherently communicating with people I'm away from. So... if I don't write you lovely people lots the first few days, it's not because I don't love you but because I'm a neurotic girl (sadly) who's frantically trying to figure out the El.

It's Friday, and that means that I just made it through a week of class, but I really still feel like I'm at a camp. The reality of not going home for a large period of time just refuses to sink in. Denial, anyone? I went to my Psychology 101 course for the first time this afternoon - strangely enough, it reminds me of Mr. York.

yikes, kids, leaving tomorrow. Anyone who has helpful packing tips, like how to get off your ass and do it, I'd really appreciate it. This would all be so much better if I were stoned. VERY stoned. My room looks like a small hurricane has hit.

Everyone, I've got a new sn on aim for those of you who use it - Missoulute - use it, or don't.
The weather here is amazing. Today, every time I went to a class it just POURED, and the moment class ended, the sun came out, and I got to walk through the dripping trees and lovely rain scent. I've reached the Promised Land, I tell you!
Now... let's see if I can get this posted.....

Hey Christoph - you should add Lynsey Bourke to this, it'd be VERY amusing I bet.

PlanetOut

Chris, this is like you and I having a little chat session... yeah, I think th eemail should be displayed.
I've been in the darkroom all night - the chemicals are getting to me. Also saw Ruthie, who is insane, truly insane, but dancing like 5 hours a night, which I guess is good even though it doesn't make her happy, which is upsetting. The girl in general is upsetting. Bah. Humbug. I always want to make her eat...

This is one of those things you keep thinking of other things to say... Also I'm avoiding my darkroom mess. Anyway, Chris, can we add things to the links and the suggested reading, etc?Miss Oulala

Does anyone have Anna Scott's cellphone number yet? Or, scotty, if you're reading this, Hey hey give us the number!

I'm a little confused by all this toolbar brough-haha (is that how you spell that?)
if you all want to drool a little, I think I'll make $10 an hour standing in a booth at the McCormick Center at a trade Fair in chicago next week...

Christoph, where do you get the Google thingamabob, and what's the difference? I feel technically illiterate about this...

Good word to say out loud repeatedly: swoon.
Try it, everyone together now.
Swoon.
Swoon.
Swoon.

Wasup fools?
I feel weird doing this since I have not been flung to the farthest reaches of the earth (yet) but instead am undergoing all sorts of madness right back here in oo la la. Missoula represent! So far my year off is rather grand. I’m brushing up on my German and formulating plans to go back. And I have plenty of time to write (or not write). SO while you all are off at college I will be finishing my masterpiece (or not.) I’m taking a cool class on the history of German cinema, which is fun cause all we do is watch movies, and I keep bumping into people from Hellgate. Dylan Lazlovitch is dating some girl who none of us know. Scott Julian is growing Nick level facial hair. Lauren Norby got taller (I swear!). And Sean got hotter. Any way my (and Michaels) contact info is 745 Brooks Ave. You know the rest.

This is pretty cool, kids.
LEDAH'S CHICAGO INFO:
2124 W. Balmoral
Chicago, IL
60625
"home" (773)334-3176
cell (406)531-3945
I'm pretty sure I'll just keep the same Missoula number. Now that I think about it, Chris, this name isn't actually so bad. In fact, I think I like it.
As soon as everyone gets wherever they're going, you should all check out the movie "American Splendor." It's about Harvey Pekar, this comic writer, and it's INCREDIBLE.