Last night I went to the Lambda dance with Roth. And you know what? It was the first time I really missed you all. I never though you could be homesick in your own home. I was looking out over the crowd of familiar faces (the people whose names we never knew but saw over and over at every dance) and thinking how much I wanted to see Alan and Rylie and Chris and Ledah and Zach and everyone else out there and dance with you all. And as I was sitting there being all mopey, Kylie and Sean and Shane showed up and got a shot of tequila in me. Then Jessie and Laramie appeared. And suddenly I was dancing in the middle of all these people I am beginning to know and am learning to love. God I miss you all so much!
But I love my life here. I love the people I am getting to know. I am a Missoula girl. And I think there is nothing wrong with staying here. For the rest of my life even. But at this moment in my life I will go where ever I please. Do you have any idea how liberating it is to know that at any moment you could just up and leave and fly to china? In fact, I think I will. Tomorrow.